So much drama...on a valentine's day

...after an 'it seemed-like-eternity-valentines-day', i was able to survive through the day.

yeah..you might say im too cheesy..or too hopeful or should i say hopeless romantic. but thats really who i am. and im not ashamed of that.

i am the kind of person who likes giving surprises, who thinks birthdays are too special, who likes picnic on a valentines day, regardless of how corny it sounds, who always have background music in every special moment in my life...etc etc...

actually, its not really that bad, as it thought it would be. after watching the movie 'New Girl In Town', i was actually feeling ok already. It was a nice feel good movie and i really missed watching movie alone. Had my beef chili fries at Carl's Jr. which made my afternoon even better. Loved it!

Its just when i was on my way to meet the other girls in church, that it hit me. She wasnt there for my birthday, coz she have a class (though she showed up last 1.5 hours before midnight), and yesterday, she said she is tired. That's two in a row! i tried to look ok when i reached church, but i just couldnt hide it. i think i was so grumpy that i couldnt even join the other girls for dinner after the outreach. I know if one more person ask me if im ok, im gonna breakdown any minute so i just had to leave.

am i so petty? yeah probably. i know its petty. but those petty lil things in life, makes big special moments. at least for me, it does.

but oh well...it still ended a bit ok. at almost 11pm last night, she showed up in front of my door, with a rainbow lollipop in her hand and a cheesecake and a carrot cake and an apple pie and a tokyo banana creamcake..and a big big hug.

i dont know why she showed up.

i hope its love.

and not guilt.

so much drama...for one day.


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DISCLAIMER:
i hope no one is reading this. i just had to write it. else im gonna explode. and im too lazy to create another blog. sigh. so yeah... if you accidentally see my blog, sorry for my endless drama. life is too short...maybe some drama could make it longer...