friend : im going back to anti-depressants this month
Me : and why is that?
friend : suicidal
What a way to start my morning! Sigh.... I hate it when people resorts to suicide whenever they couldnt handle something, be it people close to them, or heartaches they could never take, or problems they couldnt solve. Call me judgmental but i think it sucks! really sucks!!! Yes, if its still not that obvious, i am very much against suicide. I think it's very selfish of them to just escape everything without having to worry about the people who love them. Without having to think what will happen if they do really die? and worse, what if they dont and their family and friends will have to suffer too, emotionally and physically, not to mention financially?
Sometimes, i think thats their way to get attention of those people close to them, but it really sucks man! If you want attention and love, suicide is definitely not the answer. The best thing you could get would be love out of PITY. And I dont think anybody would want that kind of love. I wont!
Life is too short. And very precious too. There are so many people struggling so much just to live a little longer. So many people on their deathbed willing to give everything for another second to breathe and live. So many people trying to survive no matter what it takes. And that i understand. But these suicidal people...arghhhh! ... I just couldnt understand why they would take their own lives...they say they are not loved enough, they say they've had too much of this life's trials...whoa!! with this kind of attitude, i honestly dont think they are worthy of the love that they want. They want to be loved, but have they loved enough? They want the people close to them to have time for them, but have they done that for them too?
Sometimes, we just think too much and drown ourselves into self pity. Why dont we just look around and open our eyes so we could see that there our others who have bigger problems, who has gone through more heartches than us? there are even some who havent had the chance to experience how it feels to be loved. I mean, whats the worst thing that could happen to you that could make you end your life (that, by the way, is not even yours)?
- if you're brokenhearted, well, you can still be thankful that at least you know how it feels to love and at one point in your life, you felt loved. not too many people experience that.
- if you have a family problem, be thankful that no matter how big the disagreements are, you still have a family that you could call your own. some doesnt even know where they came from.
- if you failed at school or at work, be thankful that at least, you learned something about your weaknesses and that you could start working on it.
- if you feel alone, and you feel that nobody cares, be thankful because there are some people in the ICU who is more alone than you, who cant do anything with their situation. You may be alone, but you still can move, you can breathe and you can do something with your life.
I could go endless...but no matter the circumstances are, i know, there's always somebody out there who is suffering more than we do. And they're not giving up. They're fighting for their lives.
If we have something we've never had before, maybe, we should do something we've never done before. If you want love, start loving. In its truest sense. If you want to be cared for, start caring for others. Dont wait for others, start with yourself. Now.
It has always been said that life is what we make it. Be miserable, and it will be miserable. Live happily and you'll have a happy life. As simple as it is but true. No anti-depressant could help you live a better life...its up to you. Enjoy the little things in life. Run in the morning. Have coffee with friends. Read a book. Write a poem. Play tennis. Play your guitar. Surprise your friends. Treat your mom to lunch. Give flower to a girl you like regardless of her possible reaction. Eat ice cream. Walk under the rain. Life is so good. To be alive is even better. So we should make the most out of it.
And for you my friend, if , by chance, you'll read this entry, dont be offended. dont be mad at me. I am just concerned. Because you are important to me. If you think you're alone and that nobody cares for you, think again.
