Coping with my Withdrawal Symptoms

For the last few weeks, I've been trying to ignore this feeling. But today, i feel a need to say something about it, lest it will just all explode within me.It's been 28 days now since i last saw my kissing friend and im starting to feel the withdrawal symptoms...

Everywhere i go, there's always something to remind me of her:

mooncakes - this is her favorite, esp mooncake with 2 eggyolks. what makes it worse, its mooncake festival so i could practically see mooncake everywhere.
black cars - she's driving a black car so everytime i see it on the road, cant help but look at the driver and the plate number.
chawanmushi - this is her all-time favorite whenever we eat at sakae sushi.
wheelock place - her favorite shopping mall (it has borders, sakae sushi, fish & co., birkenstock & apple)
dogs - she loves dog so much she dreams of adopting all the strayed dog in the street.
chocolates - just like me, she cant live without chocolates..esp during PMS days
Singapore Idol- its about to end on sunday and her bet is on the Top 2
Peuguot service center - she goes here for her car repairs
mark & spencer - she loves the chocolate and the cookies and cornflakes here

foot reflexology - every week, she goes for foot massage

Moon - she's one of the few people i know who loves looking at the moon

Mushrooms and fish cakes - she loves them in the food she eats

Milo dinosaur - she's the one who taught me about milo dinosaur
friday - this is her favorite day, time off from teaching and she gets to see her cg mates


HOW DO I COPE?

silence.
i dont talk about it.
i dont go out with anybody.
i just live my daily life without any emotions.


control.
i do not communicate with her.
i do not give in, even when she's trying to see me and communicate with me.
i keep myself busy.
i try not to think of her..hmmm..this moment im blogging is an exception.


acceptance.
i convinced myself that this is the right thing to do.
i accepted the fact that i was hurt. by her.
i accepted the fact that some things, good or bad, never lasts.
i accepted the fact that its ok to let go.


support.
i've got my support group friends.
people like me who can understand.
who shares the same sentiments about life and love.
i've got my Big G. who has been there with me. all the way. in every way.


WHAT DO I DO NOW?

i write about it.
i run in the evening. I may not be able to run from the pains but somehow, running makes me feel better.
i listen to inspirational music.
i try to catch up on my readings.
i watch DVDs to keep my mind occupied.


WHAT IM PLANNING TO DO?

i will be starting with my drum lessons next month.
i will do some self studying on japanese language.

i will do an empty chair session.
i will continue to write.
i will still love. and get hurt again. and then move on...and fall again...and so the cycle goes...